A glimpse of what could be - March 29th

Well, yesterday was a lot better than the day before. I actually felt motivated to get up off my lazy ass and do something productive.

So I went to church. It was the 'same ol, same ol' stuff I grew up with, but I actually teared up a little. I saw a black couple comfort and hug this little old white lady. Yeah, sounds stupid, but it made me tear up. I guess I just miss being in a small town where I know everybody. GORSH! Did I just say that? Me miss the small town life? Well, sometimes I do. I'm definatly not taking advantage of big city living, if Columbus Ohio is big city living.

Anyhoo, after church I went grocery shoppin and spent too much money on one time dinner fixes. Then Lori and I went to Lowes and I spent the rest of the 70 degree sunny weather outside digging up my flowerbed, and re-laying the stones in the backyard. It was nice playing in the dirt again.

Jeremiah came over to help me cut the boards I got for the flowerbed. After that, we decided to go out for dinner to a semi nice place that would require better than normal dressing. Of course I got gussied up, with wet hair, and later on when Jeremiah walked through my door HE was gussied up too!! That hardly ever happens!! He looked so sexy and sooo cute. And the first thing he said to me was that I looked good. ~smile~ And just when I thought things couldn't get any better that day, he surprised me with a bouquet of flowers.

Well, our semi nice dinner turned out to a steak dinner at Lonestar or whatever that place is called. Our other choice of eating closed at 9pm. So we drove around for 20 minutes trying to find a place that stayed open til 10pm on a Sunday.

It was a nice day. And it ended nicely as well. In the arms of my guy where we just petted each other in silence.

And I know I've been depressing lately. And I'm sorry to those who are annoyed by it. I'm trying my best to deal with what I have in this life I don't know how to live yet. I guess I'm judging myself to harsly. I just know that once I find 'that' job, things will be better. So please, bear with me til I find my way.

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