they come with a vengence - March 14th

I am trying my very hardest not to breakdown right about now. Everything is building up yet again and I'm not good at fixing things I don't know how to fix.

My daily headaches are returning, my neck pains are getting worse, I'm not feeling very well, my insurance is attempting to screw me over again so I have to figure that out. My car is on the verge of dying and I don't have the time, means, or money to get it fixed. And I refuse to take the bus to work. I need to see a doctor to get a referral to see another stupid doctor to please the insurance co. so I can get my stupid nose fixed so I can breathe right.

I'm beginning to think that my current chiropractor is screwing up my neck even worse. I have been going to him well over a year now and there has been little progress in the bone structure of my neck. And my headaches are still there, and the neck pains, and now its getting to the point where the muscles are so tight in my back that they cramp even when I do a simple stretch in the morning when I get out of bed.

I just wish they would cut me open, bend my neck back in the right position, and sew me back up. Presto! Instant fix! I have wasted so much of my time and money, and gas on this past year and a half to see "a stubborn neck". He doesn't do crap. I don't care if he is a devout Christian and preaches that he never turns anybody away. He's not fixing my neck fast enough so I don't like him anymore.

And to top it off, either my pharmicist or my doctor gave me a different birth control so I wonder if that's making me feel crazy. And I hate, HATE smokers who throw their butts out the car window. Litter your lungs but don't litter around me. You can just go away.

Ok. I'm done bitching for now.

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