Just being paranoid? - March 28th, 2005

I know there are some of you out there who do not believe in God or any type of religion. Lord knows I've had my times when I doubted the existence of God. I went through a tough time when I had trouble finding faith. You might even call me a "holiday catholic."

But I'm scared. I might sound paranoid or ridiculous but it might also explain why I've been feeling the way I have been for a while. Uneasy. Worried. Unsatisfied. Empty.

Ever since I've become the Continuity Director here at Infinity Columbus, I spend a good chunk out of my day, everyday to read the news. Now I'm not very familiar with the Bibe, I'm trying my hardest to get through it now, but I think that the end of days are here...or at least on their way.

And the news proves it.

Strange weather patterns. Tornados and floods in California. Earthquakes and Tsunamis. HIV, bird flu, mad cow disease, Marburg virus. Global war with no signs of peace. Increase in violence. Parents killing children. People raping children.

I read today that another earthquake (8.2) struck along the same fault line that hit the day after Christmas in Indonesia. Scientists are predicting another Tsunami.

I hope that this isn't the end of days, that I'm just being wierd or dellusional. I want the chance to get married, and have children.

But I just don't get the world sometimes. There are so many sick people out there and I don't understand why they just can't snap out of it and wake up. Can't they see what they are doing or what it could cause?

The number of people doing unjustice seems to outnumber the people who are trying to make things better. All the news is ever about is negative circumstances. Rarely do you read a story about something positive.

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